Ramblings

You never know where life is going to take you.  The last time I was here  just a few days after my 58th birthday.  Life seemed "normal" then.      Although my boyfriend and my sister-in-law had just lost someone so important in their lives, I believed that I could help them both through their grief.  Little did I know, that I was only preparing myself for some of the hardest things I was about to encounter.  All the great advice I gave them, all the positive things I knew to say, all of those things escape me now.      On August 11, 2014 the first man that I ever loved passed away.  My Daddy.  Life has been so difficult with him gone and I had so many questions for God.  All the whys just didn't seem to get answered.      Then 3 days before Christmas, on December 22, 2014, the most horrible tragedy happened.  My son called me to tell me he had found his son, my 17 year old grandson dead.  ...

I can't believe it's been a month since I've been here.  I guess my mind has just been on other things.  I also can't believe how far off "target" I seem to get.  I had all these plans to work on the book and I haven't done much at all.  I did write for a couple of days, but then I just get busy with life. So, I just turned 58 and I feel great.  Business is still slow, but I know it will pick up now that summer is almost here. Josh is living with me now.  My nephew, Ida's son.  He is working for Bret and it's nice to have someone else in the house.   Love, love, love to all and maybe I'll be back soon!

Today we worked on the steps (Bret and I and Daddy was supervising) ~ Last year the Natural Gas Co. came in and put in a line to my house so I wouldn't have to be paying for propane.  Well in the process they dug up most of my steps up to my parking lot. I didn't have time last summer for work on them, so we started today.  It most certainly is back-breaking work.  But we got lots accomplished.  Maybe tomorrow with Dad's help I can finish. I doubt Bret wants to come back ever!!!!  Ha ha, not really, he has to work at his job tomorrow.  Yay, Thanks Bret !!!!!

Here's a photo of the salon,  it's pretty awesome.   I saw my sisters yesterday, they were here for the day.  They both mentioned that they noticed I hadn't blogged in awhile. I have no excuse.  At least not a good one.  I guess I've been preoccupied with work, or some days the lack of work.  Still building up a clientele.  But it's getting better.  Just trying to hang in there until summer, then it will pick up. As for the story I was writing, I've decided that I need to write from a different perspective, but I haven't figured out one yet, so I'm at a stand`still.

Feeling so much frustration lately.  Haven't written in a few days.  Trying to figure it all out.  That is probably what the problem is.  Need to wait on God and quit trying to rush things........... AAARGH!

Still feeling very overwhelmed after the Women's Warrior Convention this past weekend.  I'm filled with an unrestrained passion, knowing that I'm supposed to be doing something else in my life.  Knowing I have a gift that is sitting inside being unsused. I'm waiting for God's next move in my life.  I have finally settled down some, from those 1st days after the conference.  I don't feel it's necessary for God to give me one answer ~ right now.  I will wait.       But, I found this really awesome photo on the computer, I need to post it so it doesn't get lost in all my photos & downloads.  Maybe, I will figure out a way to put them each in labeled folders.  So many things I'm capable of doing on this computer, organizing isn't one of them.  Maybe a computer class at ENMU is in order. 

                                           Empowerment   "When one paints an ideal, one does not need to limit one's imagination." -Ellen Key In the film world, we see that anything is possible.  Why?  Because there are writers and actors and directors working together to create a reality for the big screen.  Many of these production companies have names that emphasize that it is an illusion that we are watching, like "Dreamworks" or "Imagine Films."  In the "real" world, anything is possible, but we don't always believe it.  We limit ourselves to what we have already experienced, or what we can see, or feel.  But the truth is that we are creating our reality everyday, just the same way that filmmakers are making movies.  We're writing our script, and acting it out....