Ramblings

I can't believe it's been a month since I've been here.  I guess my mind has just been on other things.  I also can't believe how far off "target" I seem to get.  I had all these plans to work on the book and I haven't done much at all.  I did write for a couple of days, but then I just get busy with life. So, I just turned 58 and I feel great.  Business is still slow, but I know it will pick up now that summer is almost here. Josh is living with me now.  My nephew, Ida's son.  He is working for Bret and it's nice to have someone else in the house.   Love, love, love to all and maybe I'll be back soon!

Today we worked on the steps (Bret and I and Daddy was supervising) ~ Last year the Natural Gas Co. came in and put in a line to my house so I wouldn't have to be paying for propane.  Well in the process they dug up most of my steps up to my parking lot. I didn't have time last summer for work on them, so we started today.  It most certainly is back-breaking work.  But we got lots accomplished.  Maybe tomorrow with Dad's help I can finish. I doubt Bret wants to come back ever!!!!  Ha ha, not really, he has to work at his job tomorrow.  Yay, Thanks Bret !!!!!

Here's a photo of the salon,  it's pretty awesome.   I saw my sisters yesterday, they were here for the day.  They both mentioned that they noticed I hadn't blogged in awhile. I have no excuse.  At least not a good one.  I guess I've been preoccupied with work, or some days the lack of work.  Still building up a clientele.  But it's getting better.  Just trying to hang in there until summer, then it will pick up. As for the story I was writing, I've decided that I need to write from a different perspective, but I haven't figured out one yet, so I'm at a stand`still.

Feeling so much frustration lately.  Haven't written in a few days.  Trying to figure it all out.  That is probably what the problem is.  Need to wait on God and quit trying to rush things........... AAARGH!

Still feeling very overwhelmed after the Women's Warrior Convention this past weekend.  I'm filled with an unrestrained passion, knowing that I'm supposed to be doing something else in my life.  Knowing I have a gift that is sitting inside being unsused. I'm waiting for God's next move in my life.  I have finally settled down some, from those 1st days after the conference.  I don't feel it's necessary for God to give me one answer ~ right now.  I will wait.       But, I found this really awesome photo on the computer, I need to post it so it doesn't get lost in all my photos & downloads.  Maybe, I will figure out a way to put them each in labeled folders.  So many things I'm capable of doing on this computer, organizing isn't one of them.  Maybe a computer class at ENMU is in order. 

                                           Empowerment   "When one paints an ideal, one does not need to limit one's imagination." -Ellen Key In the film world, we see that anything is possible.  Why?  Because there are writers and actors and directors working together to create a reality for the big screen.  Many of these production companies have names that emphasize that it is an illusion that we are watching, like "Dreamworks" or "Imagine Films."  In the "real" world, anything is possible, but we don't always believe it.  We limit ourselves to what we have already experienced, or what we can see, or feel.  But the truth is that we are creating our reality everyday, just the same way that filmmakers are making movies.  We're writing our script, and acting it out....

                                           DESIRE "In my experience, there is only one motivation, and that is desire. No reasons or principle contain it or stand against it.   ( Jane Smiley) Empowered Desire moves us to action.  The bigger the desire, the swifter the action.  When we really want something, we get creative, and pull out all the stops.  We engage our intelligence, we find the means to fulfill our desire.  We become empowered.

I was really going to stick to just posting once each day ~ I seem to get obsessive with posting things I really love; but I need to put this up, because I just love it, it's so true.  :)

It's been a few days since I've written, a lot going on in my life and in my head.     I've spent many hours praying for the health of some friends & family.  I will continue to pray for their health, but I've also been praying for them to realize that they have faith inside them to believe in miracles.  We have faith because God put it there.  We didn't stumble upon it.  He gave it to us to use.       On another subject, I'm addicted to buying books.  Not necessarily new ones, I buy them at garage sales, thrift stores, etc.  Anyway, this past weekend while Bret was over at my house, I was getting ready to got on our weekend adventure, and he was looking through my bookcases.  He stumbled upon a book that I had forgotten I had. So, yesterday I started reading it.  It's a work/study book that evidently was supposed to have some DVD's included.  But, since I don't have those, I'm reading it anyway. ...

 Growth and greatness often come from those seemingly  endless, fruitless days of discipline.  

Well today was another interesting day, one of patience and progress.  Patience because, all of my appointments either rescheduled or cancelled.  It's not even snowing that hard. On a positive note regarding progress, I got so much written for my book, not in comparison to how long it will be, but just lots of time to write, since my appointments didn't show. As I write, its so weird, because I'm starting at the beginning of the incredible stories of where I've been, what I've done and how I've survived.  And all the while, the remembering is very emotional. Some happy, some sad, but mostly just emotional.  It makes me realize that I've spent so much of my life living in the "emotional" part, that had I known what I know now, things could have been so different. I realize that I had to go through these things to grow into who I am now, but I feel bad for the hurt I inflicted because of my lack of regard for anyone else's feelings.  It was...

It's funny that I stumbled upon this picture today.  I started writing about three days ago.  It's hard "that writing".  Has to do with my ADHD, because I get so off track.  I have to keep making little notes, so I can go back to a certain thought and stay on track.  Wish me luck, maybe this book will eventually get written.                                                                                 

Well, I did it.  I took the course, I passed all the tests, and now I've opened the Crystal Pistol.  The Crystal Pistol is the name of the salon I owned from 1985 until 1993.  Also known as "The Best Little Hair House in Town". It's just amazing that I finally completed this ~ so exciting!  Not alone, I did it with a little help from all my family and friends, and a lot of help from God!